What to write- What to write.

I couldn't think of what I was going to write. But I knew if I didn't write I would end up waiting a few days, then a few more days, and then a few more, and I would never write again. So! I'll write about my experience with God in the car today. 

I watched my little 'niece' today until about 2 o'clock and then I went to CostCo with my dad. Now, generally things were fine. But I just had that BLAH feeling. Ever get that? I didn't know if I was tired or just numb. But we stopped by our house after wards to get something that we had to return to Wal*Mart and so my dad went inside the house to get it. I was sitting in the drivers seat just asking myself, 'What is wrong with you? Life's what you make it so make your day better!' haha so that's what was going through my mind at the time and I just looked up towards God and out loud I said 'God, I don't know what this feeling is, or why I'm feeling this way but God, I don't like it. Please take it from me and help me to make it through the day happy!'

And so I prayed and at the time I was listening to 95.3 Praise Fm. and I turned it up really loud and just sat there with my eyes closed. And the song 'Word of God Speak' came on and I was sitting there singing along without realizing that I was singing along. and this is gonna sound super cliche and I always make fun of the people on KTIS that are like 'This song put tears in my eyes and I seriously felt God! (as their sobbing)' But I seriously felt God so strongly in my car. In a car. the King of Kings met ME in a Car. and I just sat there and sang along. The song ended all too fast, but I was left in a better mood than before. 

Isn't that just awesome!? That someone so amazing had time for ME. When I needed Him, he came to my rescue. Every single day, I'm left in awe of the Creator. 

So, that's what I decided to share. I hope you, the reader, understand that God is ALWAYS there. Right there, when you need him. He hears your cry and he'll give you a peace, love and comfort. 

Well. That's all I've got:) ... for now.

M. 

Friends-

Friends. They consume my mind. Worries, Concerns, Memories, and Laughs. That's what consumes my mind a lot of the time. 

Some say I'm, Stubborn, Crazy, Fun, Annoying, Hard to get along with, Loud, ect. But when I meet a select person, that decides to look past that and actually get to know me. That's when I know I have a true friend. A true friend is someone you can always tell the truth to. No matter what the situation is. A true friend is someone that you can get into a huge fight, and it would be like nothing ever happened. 

True friends are hard to find. But I'll tell you this now, when you find one, do everything you can to make sure they know how much you love and appreciate them. Or else they don't feel loved and appreciated by you. It's like if you love someone, but you never actually tell them how much you love them. How are they supposed to know that you love them and that they mean something to you? Exactly. They wouldn't. 

My advice, is to always, always, always. Tell them the TRUTH! Tell them how you really feel inside! and If they're a real friend they'll understand and tell you the truth and how they feel. Friendships take long hours of conversations and laughs and fun, but when hurt and disappointment come into the picture you can't forget all those things and start attacking them for the things that they didn't know they did wrong. Communication is the key. When things go wrong, don't shut your them out and refuse to talk. 

When I read over this It just seems like a blob of advice. Which it is. But it's MY advice :) That's why I wrote it. So it could possibly help someone that might just happen to be reading this.  and always, always remember, 'No one ever trips on a mountain, but merely on small pebbles on the road way of life.' So it's the little things that will cause the most drama. I can guarentee it. But If you take the advice I've given in this update, t little things won't cause the drama because the little things won't happen in the first place. At least not as often :)


So for a little wrap up remember these things:


Showing them you love them
Communication
Understanding
Taking Breathers
and always believing in them
In the end will help you step over the pebbles instead of trip on them :)
AND you'll have amazing, life long friendships. Not Perfect. But amazing.

Hope you enjoyed this.

M :)

Hello There.

It's been a few days but I felt If I have nothing to write, then don't write random crap that will mean nothing to anyone. So here I am after Easter weekend, still completely in awe of Jesus and all he went through for me. Easter Sunday I went to a friends house and watch 'The Passion of the Christ' and I had never ever seen it before. So we get to the part where they're violently whipping him with the hooks and if you were to look around the room you would have seen a lot of tears from my friends watching it with me. I could only think of the questions going through their head cause I know they were going through mine, How could people do something so terrible? How could they? To someone that was so innocent. To someone with no sin. He was perfect. Perfect. I just simply don't understand it and I never will. 

 When he was on the cross he said "Father forgive them, for they do not know what they have done." He was PERFECT. and he asked his Father to FORGIVE US?! The people WITH sin? I just don't get it. How much love and compassion can one person have. I'm not saying its a bad thing but it's just something that amazes me daily. One day on the streets of Gold. I will ask him why I was worth it. Why me? What did I do to deserve that love and compassion, mercy and grace. Cause I certainly don't understand. My God is SO Awesome.

It's just so hard to comprehend. 'By his stripes, we are healed.'
But, anyways, That's just something I wanted to share. :)


M.

Penetrating the Darkness with an unfailing Light-

So tonight we had our first music concert in Uptown. Now, I was expecting to go, hear songs, and leave like it never happened. But I was wrong. We got there and set up and before they started practicing we had group prayer, and the second we started praying Gods spirit was so tangible it sent shivers down your spine. I knew from then on that it wasn't going to be an ordinary 'Jam Session'. The first half was iffy. People were walking in and out so it was easily distracting. My nanny boy woke up from his nap and I was holding him and trying to get him back to sleep. The group was singing a song and suddenly the Presence of God just flooded the coffeehouse in Uptown.

It was so strong so... Uplifting. To know that in a city where darkness lurks on every corner, alley, and side street, God, he was there in the midst. His light shinning brighter than anything.  Now I don't know what it sounded like from outside the Beat coffee house but inside was uplifting Praise and Honor to the King of Kings! My God is so good! 


Jesus said, "For a brief time still, the light is among you. Walk by the light you have so darkness doesn't destroy you. If you walk in darkness, you don't know where you're going. As you have the light, believe in the light. Then the light will be within you, and shining through your lives. You'll be children of light - John 12:35

I <3 that verse. I hope it brings as much understanding to you, who is reading this, as it does to me.


M. :)

What do you have to lose?

So as I'm sitting in prayer reading The book of Luke Chapter 20-24. The crucifixion of Christ. I looked up at the cross that is hung above our platform in Awe. And all that ran through my head was how much pain it cost him, to save me. Like being hung by his hands with nails through them. How his feet were nailed to the cross. How he had thorns pushed through his head. and I keep picturing the inscription that was on the top of the cross. 'Jesus, King of the Jews'. They inscribed it as mockery towards Jesus, as a joke. Little did they know. He was, and still is.

When Jesus was on the cross there was a criminal who was mocking him, saying that he was crazy, even stupid, and that if he was God, to save them and himself, but the other criminal the one on Jesus' right side, he looked at the man who was mocking Jesus and said to him 'Have you no fear of God? You're getting the same as him. We deserve this, but he did nothing to deserve this.' and then he said 'Jesus,  remember me when you enter your kingdom. '. Personally when I get to Heaven would love to meet this man. He didn't sit there and mock God. He understood the circumstance. He understood Jesus was being killed for nothing, that he did nothing wrong. He understood that he was the Messiah. This man had humility. Which is far more than I can say for most people.

In this jumbled mess of what I have to say, this is what I'm getting at. Why wouldn't people serve a God that died for them? Why wouldn't they Love Him with all of their hearts? What do they have to lose? That's the most puzzling question to me. and I wish badly that I had the answer.  There's a quote that always stuck out to me. It makes the most sense in a senseless world. And it's this. 'I would rather go through life believing there is a God and dying to find out there isn't, than to go through life believing there isn't and dying to find out there is.'

So that's what's been on my mind. I hope you understand what I'm trying to say. and I hope I've shed some light on the subject for you :)

There's a first time for everything -

This is my first blog. ever. I've thought about creating one before and the thought of it slipped out of my mind somewhere along the road of life. Some people say I'm good at writing and some people say I'm terrible at it so I guess it's good that I'm not being critiqued. :)

Let me just start by saying a little bit about me. I am saved by God's mercy and grace and through those alone. I have my friends who are my family. I have my church who is also my family. and I have my actual family. I've been through a lot over the years and no matter where life seems to take me, God always brings me back to where I need to be. Am I there? No. Am I working on it? Yes. 

So please don't blame me for not being perfect or not always having the perfect ideas and/or opinions but  read this blog and understand what I stand for and what my opinion about a certain situation after another is. 

A blog is for a bunch of random word vomit that catches you by surprise like thoughts do. So in my blog, I will explore my thoughts of my crazy brain and hopefully get some readers in the process. :)

Enjoy!