It's amazing what we put ourselves through. and It's amazing what life puts us through.
These past few days have been... different. To say the least.
Things have happened. Life, has happened. People are hurting. Friends are hurting. Family is hurting.
Yet, somehow when you try to comfort these people, or think back to what you would have wanted if/ and when you were in that same situation. and all you get is distance. Distance from the person/people that mean the most to you. Distance from... your very own heart. Because you put SO much into that person/situation. You put so much of YOURSELF into their life/situation that you don't even know how to live or function properly, because you miss them. Or because you miss what you've put time and heart into. You miss everything.
Now, please don't get me wrong, I am a firm believer in giving everything your best and giving it your whole heart. Which is why when something happens, and distance is created, I'm the one that gets hurt the most! But I don't regret my hurts for a second. Because on my best days, I had the best people. And on my worst days.. I had maybe one person, or none at all. But the beautiful thing about hurt and loneliness, is that you get to give God that much more. You get to trust him to take it all. It's so easy to do that when you have someone. When you have your person... but when you don't.. that's the hardest time to give it all. To make sure that the gap between you and God, doesn't exist. You see, this is what we do to him daily. This is how he feels. He's ALWAYS there. He gives us his all. and we create distance, and he's the one that gets hurt.
Now, this is a lot to take in. A lot to think about. But seriously, think about it. Think about your friends, and think about your relationships and the people that mean the most to you. And when you're going through a rough patch, don't create distance, because I can't promise that when the distance is gone and done with, that they'll still be there.
But, for now, that's all I have for you, that's all my brain can compute tonight.
Just give me a few days, and I'll have more for you to read (:
Thanks for reading. God Bless!
