Most don't like pain.
It's uncomfortable. It hurts. It comes out of no where to make you wish something had never happened.
Emotional pain. Physical pain. Mental pain.
Pain can be miserable. But often, without pain, we wouldn't know what to fix. Without pain, we wouldn't know where we're broken, we wouldn't know how or when we're made whole again.
I don't like medications for a simple reason, they block all pain so that you cannot feel so that you don't know where the pain is, but you'll always know what caused the pain and that will cause you more pain. You can forget and block the right now pain, but the point and time of impact will do more damage.
Here in this life I don't wish to be pain free. I wish to be resilient. I wish to be stronger. I wish to be able to ignore it. But I don't wish to be pain free. A day will come with no more pain. No more tears. No more brokenness. But today? I wish to feel the pain. I wish to find whats broken and strive to find something bigger than that pain that I can lean on and believe on. Something bigger than me and bigger than you. I wish for something that can take the pain away forever and someday He will. If today is not my day, if today I am not made whole, if today I don't get my miracle... if today, I feel pain, that gives me an even greater hope and longing for the day when he truly makes me whole.
I like pain. I welcome the pain. Maybe I'm weird, maybe I'm different. But while I'm here in my brokenness I want to look back and say "yeah, that's where my pain started" and be able to come to terms with that situation.
1 Peter 5:10 "But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, establish, strengthen, settle you."
If my pain today brings me to a better tomorrow, then I will say hello to the pain and welcome it. Jesus is all I need. He will make me whole when the time comes. Goodbye will come when it comes, but for today, hope and faith is all I need.
